♥~~Release Day Blitz + Giveaway~~♥ TAMING RYDER by Nicola Haken
“Perfect! You’re getting into the spirit faster than I thought you would.” “Why’d you say that?” “I just get the feeling this isn’t your first choice sometimes. The porn I mean.” Mason’s eyebrows furrowed, his eyes narrowing as he contemplated my words. “Maybe it’s not. But I chose this, and as with every other job I’ve ever had I will give it my everything. To say I’m doing this because I’ve no other choice, like I’m being forced into it or only doing it because I’m desperate is disrespectful to both the industry and to me.” “Hey, that’s not what I meant,” I said genuinely, worried I’d offended him. “Oh I know you didn’t. I just wanted to put it out there, that’s all. I don’t know many people, but of those I do I know they’ll judge me for this when they find out. Too many people assume going into this industry means we’re either damaged, desperate or fucking whores who deserve to be seen as nothing more than a walking fuck hole.” “Well fuck ‘em. Anyone who doesn’t see you for who you are isn’t worth knowing. We’re all in it for different reasons, and those reasons are no one else’s goddamn business. It’s just a job. A fucking great job, but still a job nonetheless.” “You really think it’s a great job?” “Sure I do! I love sex, and I get to fuck hot guys for a living. Who wouldn’t love that?” “But it’s different, no? I know I’ve only done one scene, but it’s a whole different ballgame than when you’re intimate with someone.” “I don’t do intimacy, so I wouldn’t know.” “So, you’ve never had a relationship?” “No. Not something I’m looking for.” “You don’t think it’d work? Being in porn?” “It’s got nothing to do with the porn. A few of the guys are in relationships. Gio’s been with his guy almost a year and they’re still going strong. It’s just not something I want, regardless of the career I’ve chosen.” “You must get lonely though. We all do. Don’t you hope to find someone you can just… I don’t know, share things with one day? Be there for you?” “No,” I said curtly, hoping my tone would be enough to stop him probing further.